bye jan..

FINALLY JAN IS COMING TO AN END ~~ WOOT !!

haiz.. for the 1st time.. i really look forward to cny.. e reason is simple.. i wan to chong chong xi.. i nd a change.. the start to 2008 is really terrible + horrible.. those tt read tis blog, or mi 5 ears, will noe y..

mainly is being disturb my tis love love stuff.. hahax.. really get miself toooo into it.. oni until last wk did i really felt better.. the 1st 3 wk, veri veri jialat lor.. mi whole brain is filled wif tis.. everyday seems like a week, n everyweek seems like a mth.. i told them, i got 7 main concern, mainly family, frenz, health, money, entertainment, work, love.. im veri veri happy wif e 1st six, but the last one is the oni thing tt can make mi go heywire.. hahax.. sianed.. they told mi, well, if start bad, will end gd.. JAN oreadi soooooooooooooo jialat.. i really hope feb n the rest will b better..

family n work oso a bit prob, but well, they wun affect mi too much, at most 1 or 2 days..

frenz r really impt.. im really veri glad to hv them 5 ard mi.. without them, i tink i really can die.. they r always there for mi when i nd them.. their ears always(erm..MAYB not always..) there for mi.. i love to say out everything bout miself, regardless is gd or bad.. i noe they sometime really feel veri irritated when listening to mi, but still, they hang in there..

• thx to hong for ur ears even when urself is oso feeling veri down..
• thx to ern for ur ears, although i said tt u no gd listener, but ur ears r still equally impt to mi..
• thx to ling for ur eyes, although u nv really lend mi ur ears, oni lend mi ur eyes.. u always dun wan mi to call u.. i like to tok, dun like to type !!
• thx to jy, even we nv tok much, busy wif ur fyp..
• thx to mp, the 6 hrs in mac, the chat at tiong until 3+am, late night supper..

WEIHONG, ERNEST, YULING, JIANYI, MEIPING !! THANKS A MILLION !!

feb is comin in less then 2 hrs, cny in less then a wk.. pls.. make it better.. pls pls.. hehex :D

**well, i directly told her bout tis blog.. she nv say anithing.. hmm.. hv she read it?? wat's she's tinking?? if u r lookin @ tis.. u asked mi b4, arent i afraid tt my feeling will b gone after i release them? n mi reply to u is it'll oni b gone when someone makes mi.. well.. it's still here, inside me..

PET meeting + dinner

tues PET meeting.. long time no c Jacqueline n Jane.. hahax.. welcome back!

although da meeting was called cos there's bad news (as can c fr mi previous post, 3 ppl quitting.. haiz..), nonetheless, it's a veri enjoyable one..

when PET comes tgt, peace and quiet will nv be link wif us.. lol.. tt's wat make mi like PET so much..

halo.. isit sooo hard to differenate between wei liang n wei jian ?? lol !! IM WEI JIAN !! oops..

thx to Felix for the treat @ soup restuarant @ suntec.. again, same as last time, jane sit in between shulei n sabrina, as usual, kena torture again.. hahax

here's a pic taken using shulei's cam, n grab fr shulei's blog..

L-R, Back - Weijian, Sabrina, Jane, ME
Front - Jacqueline, Shulei
Updated 010208 - I wonder did anione realise, the above 6 r the youngest members of PET, in term of age n in term of the time in PET. Other then Jac(1987), the others r all 1985.. lol

will post more pics once i get them fr mi HP, hvnt get them out.. hahax..

PETs, you all r the best.. You all r wat make my working life fun n enjoyable.. Even though some will b leaving the PET family soon, but we'll still b tgt.. Once a PET, always a PET!! lol

**to those that still got no idea wat's PET, im not meaning the pet we hv @ hm.. tt's mi dept name, Project Engagement Team, aka PET

pics updated, 8.13pm

here goes nuthing..

well, here goes nuthing.. i really dunno wat's goin on liao..

gd luck..

i hate miself, again..

thx to ern for da tagbox.. hehex.. pls type something there :D

aniway, tt's not the main thing i wan to post bout..

i thought i oreadi moved on.. i thought it's oreadi reduce alot.. the feelings is like floating away fr mi.. although i noe i still hv feeling, but it's getting lesser n lesser wif each passing days..
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how wrong i was..

the post on her blog i saw on sun, gimme a glimmer of hope.. i was happy for a while.. but still, i tink i dun like her tt much as b4 liao.. wrong.. WRONG !! omg.. i was totally in a lost.. mi mind will goin whirlwind.. i totally blank out..

i wan to tok.. i wan to let her noe.. or mayb, juz a simple normal chat.. nuthing.. totally nuthing come out of mi.. i hate miself..

i really hate miself.. hate for being such a coward tt oni will use sms.. hate for being unable to let go.. hate for torturing miself wif something i cant do anithing.. hate for.. everything..

it's veri suan, veri luan now.. i dun wan to tink.. how i wish i can stop tinkin bout tis..

**well something else to add.. other then tis MAJOR problems, office got 3 ppl quiting.. more workload coming up.. sianeed.. parents hv major fight.. even used e D word.. omg.. even more sian.. H.A.I.Z

xie men.. or isit trying to hint us ??

ytd when to K wif ling n ern, a mix up, i go chinatown, but they go clementi, in e end cab to ling hse n tgt go clementi

aniway, here's the main part.. andy lau's 再说一次我爱你(zai shuo yi ci wo ai ni).

记得 那天 你坐在我的面前
你的意愿很明显
等我的表现我说
改天 等我有足够时间
我一定给你一次完美 爱情的宣言
多想 抓紧每一瞬间
只怕故事已是昨天
才明白 忽略是我最大的缺陷

我真的 好想 再说一次 我爱你
我愿意放弃所有一切 只为换回你
如果 时间 能够为你而倒流
真的好想牵着你的双手 再说一次 我爱你

回忆 已经 没有你在我面前
看什么也会感到厌倦 我闭上双眼
多想 两个人盖一张
被一同刷牙 一同洗脸
才明白 错把机会 借给了明天

我真的 好想 再说一次 我爱你
我愿意放弃所有一切 只为换回你
逃避 原来 不是面对的道理
看清自己种下的可惜 重复后悔的延续

喔 我真的 好想 再说一次 我爱你
我愿意放弃所有一切 只为换回你
如果 时间 能够为你而倒流
真的好想牵着你的双手 再说一次 我爱你

tis song, is a sad song.. the gf/wife leave e guy, then he regret not spending enuff time wif her.. now he wan to tell her again, tt he love her, he will gif anithing to get her back, wan to hv the time where 2 person share 1 blanket, etc.. but everything is too late..

last song of e day, i sang it.. then ling wan to get the movie of the same name.. we walk all ard clem, juz cant find a vcd shop.. our last stop, video ezy.. hey, it's a vid rental store.. got sell meh?? but outside got display some used vcd.. n guess wat, the disc is there.. omg..

ling bought it, i kope fr her to c it.. after watching it, xie men thing happen to mi.. i was msg her, after 3 fast reply(less then a min), she stop.. after 15min, i was bo liao, so browse her blog, then i saw something she wrote, i was like "WTF", then immediately after i read tt paragraph, mi hp sounded, she replied to mi.. i was stunned......

ern n ling went out ltr tt evening to get ling dress.. according to them, when they step into a shoe shop, they hear tt same song.. ern say he at least hear tis song thrice ytd..

i dl a better version of tis song, then listen to it twice b4 slpin, n the 1st song i listen to when i leave for work tis morn..

now, we 3 toking on msn.. ling was feeling down, so i told her to listen to jay chou's wo bu pei, then tt song.. i was finishing syncing of mi ipod.. i eject it, pluck out usb, but a slip of hand, i drop mi ipod on mi keyboard.. xie men part2, i dunno y, mi itunes, jump to a playlist, n a song start playing..
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wanna make a guess wat song was played..
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IT'S THE SAME SONG AGAIN !! omg i was soooooooooo stun..

does it means anithing?? isit a hint for e 3 of us??

for ling, i ask her to listen, cos tt's wat she's feeling now.. exactly e same as the movie..

for mi, i wan to do the same thing as tt song.. i posted something using e lyrics of tis song b4.. i wan to let her noe again, tt i still love her.. n i will gif anithing to hv her.. at least im better then tt guy in e song, it's still not too late for mi.. i still can do it de..

as for ern case, i dunno :P sorri ern..

soo xie men.. too xie men liao.. im looking @ the vcd n listening to tt song now.......

outing + hunting + makaning..

wanted to post it ytd nite, but mi phone gimme prob.. ling n ern, THE LENS REALLY CANT CLOSE.. :'( whu wan to pei mi to wisma for repair?? lol

went out str after queenstown pri.. go tis thoughts of goin hm to change then meet, but ern oreadi there since 1630.. we 2 sat down @ wisma starbuck while waiting for ling to come.. chit chatting.. she finally come when it's ard 7.. drag us to LV store, where we saw a wallet for 745.. WOOT.. @ mont blanc, a nice wallet for 285.. hmm.. kinda tempted by it miself.. hehex

dinner @ bakerzin(note, i cant really rmb da name..) @ paragon..nice place, nice food.. pizza is gr8.. ling orded meatball spag, wif in turn, they 2 keep saying "how, is ur balls nice?"............. after so much "training" wif PET, esp by Felix n Sabrina, once i heard tt, i cant stop laughin.. hahax..

we went back to taka, the dept store, again trying to hunt.. saw a 2490 blazer or some sort.. wth.. orchard stuff is really too high class n too ex for mi !! we try out perfume, hugo boss XY, nice.. i wan.. :p

end up in coffee club.. whoa.. mi 1st time there.. the window seat had such nice view !! 2 cakes for the 3 of us, n lots of photos taking (i tink tis is where mi phone spoil, cos taken too much of ling's zhi lian pics)..

when we goin hm, reachin bus stop, 65 came, i wan to ran for it, tmd ling hold on to mi to prevent mi fr catching it.. ARGH i'll get mi revenge !! ling bus came nx, then 14 come, then 111. hahax, in the end im still the 1st one to reach hm.. v gd outing.. nice.. enjoyable..

OOO ern gif e 3 of us a new name..
WJG == 5 of us
SJG == no jy
if oni ling n ern n liang == cha cha cha (XXX)

y?? look below.. lol

view fr the window seat.. all the way down

poor cake.. kena poke..

evidence tt we r @ coffee club

kissing?? lol

reason for cha cha cha.. look @ the fork in our hand.. lol.. ling vs ern n liang

look @ the view on e bkgrd !! nice !!

finally pic of e day.. look familar to u ?? the sweetest pic taken..

hope + wish

a bit linkage to my previous post, the 1st/3rd line of the song..

i feel tt, mayb im here in tis world, is to spread love n happiness.. whether i hv them or not, mayb is not realli impt.. if i can, i rather wan all the sadness to come to mi, n all mi frenz stay happy..

n it's even worst to c the one u like, veri down now.. how i wish, i can do something to make her happy, anithing within my reach, im willin to do..

*if tears really flows, i hope i can b there to wipe them away*

暗号 Secret Signal

我害怕你心碎沒人 帮你擦眼淚
I'm afraid that when you're heart-broken there won't be anyone to help wipe your tears

别管那是非 只要我們感觉对
Don't bother about what others say / As long as our feeling is right

我害怕你心碎沒人 帮你擦眼淚
I'm afraid that when you're heart-broken there won't be anyone to help wipe your tears

別离开身边 拥有你我的世界才能完美
Don't leave my side / Only having you can my world be perfect

tis is a veri old song, fr zhou jie lun 3rd album.. kinda always like tis song.. todae listened to it alot.. wat's typed above is the song chours.. veri de meaningful..

esp the 1st/3rd line..

promise~~ liang

oh well.. we muz learn to stop torturing ourself wif things we can never control.. i muz..*happy*

tt's wat i put as mi msn comment now.. I MUST !!

i promise miself, i'll not go read her blog, unless there's really a nd.. reading it oni let mi noe more things, n those things make mi xin suan oni..

ARGH !! move on u stoopid wei liang !!

accompany hong to do his shopping, tgt wif des.. gd for u sia hong.. hahax.. jiayou.. after tt, went to tiong to meet mp for tokin session.. least expected is, nearly 12, ling n milton suddenly appear in front of us !! lol.. mp n mi were shock n stun, n they 2 proceed to buy food n sit beside us.. from then on, mood veri de weird sia.. lol.. dunno how to describe.. somemore ling keep crapping.. alamak.. well, in the end mp n mi left 1st.. :P

4th.. 4th time.. dun tell mi i muz wait until lucky 7 hor.. mp said ppl seldom get attached on their 1st target.. hmm.. isnt 3 times enuff ?? now come num 4.. lol.. Fifth..

忘记一个人最好的办法, 就是爱上另一个 (the best way to forget someone, is to like another)

hahax.. tt's certainly true to mi.. well, another promise ba.. i promise tt i'll reduce all tis love/rs/bgr stuff im gonna type in here.. im sure those tt read tis blog is scoldin mi, sayin im a stoopid ahole..

another week comin !! queenstown pri as usual !! wat's new?? lol..

vivocity !! ern& ling & hong & liang

lol !! we now @ vivocity blogging !! hahax.. SJG, not WJG.. jy, r u lookin @ tis?? lol..

liang - "anithing u all wan to say?"
ern - "i dun tink so.. how come?"
ling - "i wan to look @ weihong's picture.."
hong - "elo cjy"

lol.. wireless shiok sia.. thx to hong lappy.. hehex..

i wonder....

hmm.. i wonder if she noe of tis blog.. i wonder if she noe, does she ever look closely @ wat i type.. i wonder if she read, does she noe im tokin bout her? i wonder if she noe im tokin bout her, wat is she feeling ??

i can only wonder..............

10 more min b4 my class is goin to start.. im veri thankful that im hvin class every afternoon.. during class, although those naughty kids will pissed mi off badly, n i'll shout n scold them, sometime @ the top of my voice.. but, it really makes mi forget.. even though after lesson end, i'll still rmb, but at least i wun feel so much liao.. n im really happy bout tis..

like i said in mi previous post, the one i like, like someone else, n the oni thing i can do now, i wish for her to b happy.. Felix said, that is the top excuse guys will use, but is tis really an excuse? if tis is an excuse, then wat shld i do?? totally stop tokin to her, n lose another fren? when u love someone, doesnt tt means u want him/her to b happy, no matter wat?

well, i dun tink most will tink tt way ba.. "if i wan him/her to b happy, i ALSO wan to b happy"

hahax.. definitely not my way of tinkin..

she told mi lots bout tt guy, n i gif her advice n suggestion too.. hahax.. am i stoopid? i rmb mp once tellin mi tt im veri stoopid to zhu fu them.. i dunno i shld HATE myself, or i shld be PROUD of myself..

bo bian lar.. i not happy so? does anyone really care?? now i live for tis motto, "ppl happy, i'll b happy. i sad is enuff, pls make everyone ard mi happy"

clinging on the a tiny hope tt things will change in the future?? lol.. i'll laugh @ it.. HAIZ..

well, i shld be praying now tt a new one will come? or mayb she'll hv a change of heart?? even more LOL..




i wonder.........

early morning.. liang

not 9 yet.. hahax.. early rite..

rmb wat i tell ernest ytd.. he asked mi, if the gal i like, wan to oni b like bro n sis, wat will i do? my reply to him was

"well, if i love someone, i would wan her to be happy.. even in the end im not the one she chosen, i'll gif her my full blessing.. loving someone means wanting her to be happy, always.. i wun say tt if she dun choose mi, i wun even wan to tok to her in the future.. we still can b gd fren de.."

ernest say guys seldom will do wat i said.. lol..

but.. tt's e case now lar.. it's hurting to c e one u love, love someone else.. but wat to do? tis kind of pain is self-inflicted.. relationship need 2 hands to clap..

im not e kind tt say, forget n i'll forget.. when i like someone, it's a big issue to mi.. i wun change heart easy.. it's really hard for mi to forget someone, really hard.. when i fall for someone, i will love her wif all my heart.. mayb tt's why it's so hard for mi to let go..

im still clinging to tis tiny little hope, tt time will prove to her tt i'll b e one.. well, i dun c tt will goin to happen.. i really tink too much..

*cross finger n pray*

130108 liang

mon coming in less then 5 hrs, n work work again.. hahax

hong is not gd.. ern mugging all the way.. a colleauge is madly in love(i guess.. im soo envy of u !!), another is searching, mp is still waiting(mayb?)..

a list of 5 person up there, nearly all r hving e LOVE word in their brains.. love.. it can really make u happy, or make u brain filled wif nuthing but love oni, which is my case now.. hahax..

frenz always ask mi not to tink, i always say these words to frenz, but myself, hard for mi.. im still searching, still waiting.. i tink im always in tt mode..

went to K wif hong n ern ytd.. 4+ hrs.. veri de shiok.. too bad e 2 songs i wan to sing still not out yet.. zui chang de dian ying and pu gong yin de yue ding, both by zhou jie lun.. it's fun still, sang lots of songs, although kena disturb by ern whu keep sayin i sing wrong key.. OK I ADMIT MI SINGIN SUX !! lol.. n oso manage to play magic wif hong.. well, even though i stop buying them, im still veri into magic, thx hong for pei he wo.. hehex..

another week is coming upon us !! woot !! 1st 2 wks n nt gd, on the love side ba, the rest veri ok.. let's hope tis wk will b better..

*regardling the post on 8th jan.. well............................ i hvnt forget, i hvnt gif up.........

lots of postings.. 伟良

lol.. lots of postings for these 2 wks rite?? break all time record for tis blog liao.. WOOT..

again.. 08 is not gd.. oni 2 wks.. veri de bad ba..

i tink e best thing is tis morn, the acct manager for queenstown pri sch (im covering tt sch for 5wks, tis is the 1st wk), told mi the HOD IT is veri pleased with my performance.. lol.. so happy sia.. :P

bad things, todae x2..
1)got a boi pee in mi class, p4 lor !! n i didnt torture him !! well luckily, the rest of kids veri helpful, 1 bring him general office to get change, n e other help mi get the cleaner..
2)the HDB juz behind qtps, void deck got corner off by police.. on closer inspection, i tink got ppl jump floor sia.. somemore all the p sch kids walk by there n c.. omg..

well, the worst of all bad thing tt happened tis wk.. i used to tell everyone tt, in life, make sure all the things tt u did, do them without ani regrets..

im hvin hell lots of regrets on something i did..

i snap...

i hv a gd temper.. even if im pissed off wif 1 person, i wun tell him off de.. i wld release mi anger on someone tt noe tt person.. tt's e worst i'll do.. but, i dunno y, i juz snap..

i said lots of things, tt im regretting now.. said things tt i shldnt hv even said, n make mi look like a jackass.. although i apologize to tt person, im still feelin veri bad.. tt person now hv a veri veri different look on mi now, n i dun wan tt..

i cant change things liao.. i shldnt hv done all those things.. i dunno how things will go on now..

我真的, 好想, 在说一次, 我.........
但是, 已经太迟了...

IM BACK !! WEI LIANG !!

lol..

yup, i tink im finally back to mi normal self liao

hahax.. as compare to mi previous few post, really sounds like 2 different ppl posting rite?

it's really amazing how much hv changed in miself since ytd..

really feel tt e big stone is finally remove fr mi heart.. dun tink too much, i was not accepted or anithing.. hahax.. but something really happened todae, n after tt, i really felt the weight is gone..

now i dun even care whether im given a chance or not liao, i dun even nd time or a new one come along to forget..

mayb i really totally let go.. n im finally feeling happy, again.. :D

advice.. summersno..w

tis is wat mp said to mi a few hrs ago..

i dun think there's anything else you can do except to wait and be especially nice to her hopefully one day she will realised that you are the one for her

how correct those words r.. it's all fated.. even if i dun wan to believe, i muz force myself to resigned to fate, as always, nv failed..

the feeling is nv gd.. it might come to a pt, where im really afraid to hv these kind of feelings again..

my feeling is veri luan qi ba zao(in a mess) since e start of tis yr.. down 3 pints of hoegaarden juz to make miself forget for a while.. sit @ mac for nearly 6 hrs juz to tok bout tis same thing tt's happening to mi fren n mi.. yet, even after all those, mi heart still..................... haiz..

time can heal all wounds.. the oni problem is, how long will it take.. 1day, 1wk, or mayb 1yr..






there's really nuthing i can do, oni to wait, n hope..

1 day only ~liang~

well, regardling previous post, thx for those whu ask
hahax..

hong, ern, ling, jianyi, mp..

thks for all ur ears..

not goin to say anithing.. dun wan to disturb anione liao..

1 day only
for the 1st time since sec sch ICQ n until now in MSN, when i start hving SummerSnow in my nick, it's always there.. words/comments/feelings r added after it, but definitely, my nick will start wif SummerSnow..
until todae..

i promise myself, 1 day only.. i'll oni b sad for 1 day oni.. hahax.. i'll get SummerSnow back into mi nick.. i hope by tmr.. haiz..








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