perhaps..

25th Feb.. not even 2 wks ago..

it's been a roller coaster ride..

the sms tt started everything..

1st impression, chemistry.. all there.. if not, much more than usual..

i was being asked a few Q.. Qs tt i've nv been asked.. i dunno how to ans them, but in e end, i gave mi ans, tt i believe came straight from the bottom of mi heart.. some of mi colleagues said i made a mistake, i shldn't have ans e way i did.. they make mi also wander, did i really made e mistake? n bcos of this mistake, i lost a golden oppournity ?

wat ling told mi, make mi tink again.. Y was i being asked those Q? is there really a hidden agenda behind e Q asked by tt person? n if there is, is e agenda e same as wat ling tink?

i tink alot, tt's for sure, gd or bad, i oso tink, most of time, i tink wrongly x_X

somehow, after being asked tt Q, i felt, somethings had changed.. changes, tt i dun wan.. i REALLY hope is i tink too much..

Perhaps, things will work out, or it will not.. this 1.5 wks is really a veri up n down time for mi.. im glad i've gone through tis..

i will slowly.. slowly wait n c.. i will still do e best on mi part, so............
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perhaps.... =D

disappointment..

Quote from wikipedia -> "Disappointment is the feeling of dissatisfaction that follows the failure of expectations to manifest. Similar to regret, it differs in that the individual feeling regret focuses primarily on personal choices contributing to a poor outcome, while the individual feeling disappointment focuses on outcome. It is a source of psychological stress."


i will tok bout tt ltr on in tis post.. Here's a Q to everyone tt's lookin @ tis now..
"Have you ever break a promise to someone? It's not like you want to break the promise, but situation give you no other choice, but to break the promise. What you will do? What do you think the other party will feel or think?"

For mi, i dun anyhow make promises to anyone, but if i do, i will do my best to keep them. Of course, i have times, when i bo bian, die die nd to break e promise.. damn paiseh i will feel..

Promise are meant to be broken, there's tis saying. I dun agree of course.. When other didnt fulfill their promises to you, disappointment will set in, at least tt's my case..

Im not blamin anyone, tt's broke e promises to me.. juz disappointed.. usually when ppl make promises to me, i will kinda look forward to it.. i will b happy.. but in e end, due to situation tt cant be controlled, the promises had to be broken..

haix.. im juz disappointed..

Things happened, since last week.. made mi confuse, again, made mi tink a lot.. e disappointment is from there..

i dun dare to do anything.. anymore..... i dun wan to tink, but those thoughts nv go away.. i tink a lot, tis is my main source of emoness..

what's goin to happen, i dunno.. mayb, now, i dun wan to noe, n i dun wan things to happen liao..

im scared.. from tis.. i dun wan to be further disappointed, from all the fake hopes tt i tink of..

i dunno the situation, i dunno wat to do..
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although e disppointment, not ur fault, seriously!!, but still, im happy, in a sense...