i hate miself, again..

thx to ern for da tagbox.. hehex.. pls type something there :D

aniway, tt's not the main thing i wan to post bout..

i thought i oreadi moved on.. i thought it's oreadi reduce alot.. the feelings is like floating away fr mi.. although i noe i still hv feeling, but it's getting lesser n lesser wif each passing days..
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how wrong i was..

the post on her blog i saw on sun, gimme a glimmer of hope.. i was happy for a while.. but still, i tink i dun like her tt much as b4 liao.. wrong.. WRONG !! omg.. i was totally in a lost.. mi mind will goin whirlwind.. i totally blank out..

i wan to tok.. i wan to let her noe.. or mayb, juz a simple normal chat.. nuthing.. totally nuthing come out of mi.. i hate miself..

i really hate miself.. hate for being such a coward tt oni will use sms.. hate for being unable to let go.. hate for torturing miself wif something i cant do anithing.. hate for.. everything..

it's veri suan, veri luan now.. i dun wan to tink.. how i wish i can stop tinkin bout tis..

**well something else to add.. other then tis MAJOR problems, office got 3 ppl quiting.. more workload coming up.. sianeed.. parents hv major fight.. even used e D word.. omg.. even more sian.. H.A.I.Z