think.. ?

dun tink, dun care, dun feel

i've put those up in mi nick a few mths back..

now i nd to rmb them, n follow them again..

hope were a bit high, even though i noe it's juz normal de..

but i cant help miself to tink..

things happened, i pray hard tt history dun repeat itself

ya, it hvnt repeat, it totally die down..

when alone, makes 1 tink a lot..

i dun wan to tink..

when tt day past, i told miself it's NORMAL

but im juz bluffing myself..

i dun wan to fall into e hole..

i dun wan what happened tis time last yr to happen again,

unless im sure the situation had change..

but... but.. i dunno wat's goin on now..
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thinking?? pls make it stop......

happy.. ?

tired, i am..

indigestion, making mi sick..

wat do i really wan in life? i dunno..

whu is waiting for mi? i wan to know..

whu am i waiting for?? i wan to know tis too..



thought i manage to c it through.. but, mi bdae come n destroy everything.. "it's on tis special day tt i feel even more.. lonely" is wat i put on mi msn during mi bdae..

how true is tt..


"stay positive, be optimistic, find your happy days, SMILE !" my msn nick.. i thought i can do it.. i thought i must make ppl happy.. im still doin it now, n in e future i will, but myself, i dun tink i am

i wan to b happy, whu dun wan? but i dunno.. im always smiling on e outside.. i always wan to make ppl happy.. but deep inside of mi...... im not..

i wan gf.. ya, mayb if im attached, i confirm will b v happy.. now oso got other stuff, stuff which myself, i oso dunno..

emo liang, tis nick really suits me..

im tired.. tired not bcos of work oni, but tired of being emo @ anitime, tired of being alone, tired of putting up a fake smile..

i wan something, someone to look forward to everyday i wake..

i can still hv tis fake happiness and joy everyday.. but i dunno how long it will last..
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im tired...